The perfect dilemma

Currently, i am absolutely stuck and confused. confused by the decision that has to be made.
both with absolute tempting and soothing personality. i love my boyfriend. but i also love the
particular one that i used to love.

At the moment, my boyf has been going out of his mind for unsure reason. i tried asking what
is it that he is not satisfied, he'll answer in the most cynical way. and that made me
really upset. i really want to work things out. but he does not seem to be cooperating.
i have been crying ever since i knew about the hidden feelings that the 2nd party has been keeping. i knew, we could have been something else, if he had just told me earlier. my bf? sekejap2
marah. probably he is just jealous. i understand to his reaction. but now, macam he is not happy with me je. so why holding on to this agony for much longer? i don't know what could i do to fix this. because it is too messed up. now, i just have to wait and see what is going to happen next.

I just want to play a fair game. No tearing and swearing at the end of the day, instead, just
laughter and satisfaction in each other. I wish he could wait for me. But I know, that would be
very selfish of me. It'd hurt him. Sighh* It could have been easier for all of us, if he only let
me know his true feelings in the first place. hmmmm :( Que sera sera ; what ever will be will be.


Just imagine, 'he' gave me this song. godddd, i really broke down and cried..


Michael Buble - Lost




I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I only knew
Days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Though things have seemed to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
And the world's crashing down
And you cannot bear to crawl
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost.


It is just simply beautiful and soothing :(