From bad to worst.

Damn, SPM is just around the corner.
To be exact, 4 months to go.. til the BIG day; To be frank, i'm pretty afraid. Cause my midterm exam marks were really disappointing and embarassing. I actually failed my BAHASA MELAYU test. I got 39%. Maths, as usual, FAILED and also my Sejarah. Gagal sebagai anak melayu. I can only score for Science and English. sigh*
Gishh. I know, i hardly been seen holding books and study all this while.
Well, i TRIED. But every time when i hold a book, my head starts to go all merry go round :( The weird thing is, studying last minute works best for me. Nani, Mama , Abah and abang , i hope you won't expect too much from me. I am known to be the black sheep of the family in education-wise. I am not as smart as my abang, hariff nor zaza. And i'll always be that way. So please, stop putting high hopes and expectations out of me. You know that, i can't go any much further from where i stand. i just cant. please understand and just accept me as i am.

p/s: I LOVE my family very much.

Down under,

If only SHE'd speak her feelings out,
If only SHE'd understand,
If only SHE'd seen,
If only SHE'd known better,
If only SHE had her confidence,
If only SHE'd been more prepared,
How much pain is emerging ahead her.


If only I could help,
If only I could make her notice,
If only I could strengthen her faith,
If only I could shield her soul,
If only I could make a difference.
To wipe away all of her misery.


If only HE'd listen,
If only HE'd interpreted properly,
If only HE'd showed more,
If only HE'd confessed everything,
If only HE'd lowered his egoistic,
If only HE'd not did what he shouldn't had done,
If only HE'd appreciated more,
If only HE'd seen her sacrifices,
How much difference he could had made.

If only I could unite them,
If only I could bring the spark back into them,
If only I could stop the disease from spreading,
If only I could tell them,
How affected we are.

If only they knew how badly we NEED them..